Thursday, August 27, 2015

We traveled and we camped.


I seriously don’t even know where to begin with this trip. It was 11 days of gut-wrenching laughter, long bus rides, tent-pitching, earnest prayer, feeding the multitudes, growing relationships, late nights, genuine worship, card games, picture-snapping, sharing my heart, and missing my boys. I grew as much spiritually on this trip than I did as a camper years ago. It was an amazing experience; one that I can never forget. It’s taken me this long to process all that happened in those 11 days. It was the first time I was put in the “mentor” position and that was the most rewarding part of the entire trip. I told my girls numerous times that they were teaching me more than I could ever teach them. It has forever changed me. 





This was one of the highlights of my trip. We spent a couple hours at a mall in Calgary, Canada. We had the option to grab lunch in the cafeteria, and that is where I made this discovery. New York Fries. It's a fast food chain specializing in fries. Where fries are the main dish. And the side dish. I chose the "classic" meal, fries covered in brown gravy and cheese curds, (I'm salivating just talking about it). They gave me samplers of their other options because they could tell I was extremely excited. The other staff chose greek salads and things that adults should consume. And I ate french fries. The entire trip my mantra was, "Perks of the staff, eat like the campers." That's what I did, friends. For example, my typical mid-morning second-breakfast.... 


People, you don't understand the exhaustion. Early mornings, long bus rides, energetic teens, cooking for, cleaning up after, and continually serving 60+ bodies, late nights, sleeping on the ground and repeat. There was one point where my body went into survival mode and everything stopped functioning. Brain and body. Gone. But nothing a double chocolate muffin (shouldn't that just be called a cupcake at this point?) and a strong coffee couldn't fix! Coffee is the secret to staff survival. I liked coffee before TC.  I "liked" coffee. But I never relied on coffee as much as I did in those 11 days. I became a caffeine junky. (Thankfully, since returning home, I've been blessed with much more restful sleep and have been able to inch away from the everyday use. I'm a success story.) 


I was commonly referred to as "The Rookie" by the staff. I was the only first year staff; all the others were veterans. And it showed. I spilled all of Jordan's gold (hot coffee) early one morning. He may never forgive me for that. I should have bought him another one. I also failed to discipline, scold, or discourage the campers from doing anything. Because they never did something that I wouldn't have done 5 years ago... I appreciated every ounce of tip-toeing around the boundaries. That's what makes this all fun. "Perks of a staff, conscience of a camper?" Basically. I mean I probably said no to someone at some point, but I was also the one encouraging a camper to cook and eat the crawdad he found. 


Unfortunately, it didn't happen. 

I told the campers that I wanted to be their friend when I saw this...


You guys. They BUILT this in Canada. It was incredible. They covered the top with moss and even stuffed it in between the logs to seal up the cracks. It was so cool. They were so cool. Then they wanted to take this photo below, and their coolness factor became equivalent to their American pride. I couldn't stop smiling and secretly wanted to hide in that fort and live like Dick Proenneke did in Alaska. (That reference was for James and any other crazies that might know who Mr. Proenneke was. He was a pretty remarkable guy, and an obvious choice for James' idol.) 


I used to believe that high school kids weren't my favorite, because I was one and I thought I was over it. I am totally not. High schoolers are my spirit animal. They do hilarious things, eat a ridiculous amount of food, and make new friends so so fast. Can that be my life? 


2015 Travel Camp Staff

Do you remember last month when I said, "Just remember while you're sweating from the NE heat, I'll be freezing in my tent each Canadian night."? That was supposed to just be a cute little poke at the climate change between here and farther north. Instead it was a foreshadowing of my extremities turning blue and falling off from the sun never shining. I forgot what it was like to feel warmth. I wore 4 layers for 96 hours straight. Do you know how to do July like that? Because I sure didn't. If it had been Nov-Feb, I could have probably dealt with it, but my body was accustomed to certain temperatures that turn my skin brown, not blue. No sleeping bag can keep this claustrophobic face warm in those elements. No siree. 

Banff, Canada

But it certainly was beautiful! 


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There's quite the agenda when we reach a new campsite. 

Step 1: Unload the bus. 


65 people's belongings. This is just insane. 

Step 2: Set up tents and kitchen





Step 3: KP Duty
(KP stand for Kitchen Patrol, each student was assigned to help the staff with 2 meals over the course of the trip.)


Kathy goes big on these meals. She doesn't skimp out and make the easiest meals possible, she makes crowd-pleasers. Stroganoff, goulash, tacos, pancakes, chicken noodles, biscuits and gravy, chili, sloppy joes, french toast, taco salad, ham and scalloped potatoes, and spaghetti. 

And now the moment you've all been waiting for.... The award for Best KP goes to....


Nathan, Madi, and Trevor!

They received this award due to dropping pounds of raw hamburger on the dirt in bear country and of course, my absolute favorite moment of the trip.... for starting on fire! Literally Trevor's apron started on fire and he started yelling "Fire, I'm on fire!" But no worries, folks, he knew what to do. That's right, he stopped, dropped, and rolled. The first roll didn't do the trick so I attempted to stomp it out, on him. Thankfully another roll took care of the flame and the laughter of that event can never be equaled. They win, hands down. And now the TC apron will forever remind future campers of the importance of fire safety and the brave KP heroes of 2015. 


Step 4: Feed the bears
Er, I mean campers...



Step 5: Clean up


Here's a tip: You don't want to be last in the dishes line on Chili night. You will barf. 

Step 6: Free time 





Step 7: Sing



Step 8: Lesson time




Step 9: Hot chocolate
I have zero pictures of this because it was cold, dark, and I was busy pouring hot chocolate. 

Step 10: Prayer Group
My absolute favorite time of the day! Even though it started an hour after I usually go to bed at home, these girls were worth every minute of sacrifice. 


Each of these girls were brilliant and beautiful. They were embarrassingly gracious to me in my inexperience and lack of wisdom. They were incredibly honest with me. They expressed words that had never been spoken outside of our tent. They shared their fears, loves, concerns, desires, regrets, environments, doubts, hopes, sins, dreams and their hearts. Each girl brought something different to the group and we benefited from our differences. We laughed together, prayed together, cried together, and grew together. Saying good-bye was the hardest. I desperately wanted to bring them all home with me. 



Nicole


Lisa


Rachel


Kara


Taylor


Reagan


Destiny


Kyla


They were definitely the reason I needed to be on TC. So blessed to have mentored these sweet things and my "momma" heart holds them so dear. They've been covered in prayer 100 times over. 

Step 11: Bed (finally) 
Technically, there was no bed involved; we slept on the ground. But after a long day, that ground was magnificent. 


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I shared my testimony one night of camp. It was the first time I'd actually taken the time to write it down, (shocker I know, because obviously I write a lot). And it was the first time that I'd formally given my testimony. For many years I thought my story was dull or uninteresting because I had an easy childhood. No extreme tragedy, emotional trauma, unspeakable sin or deep hurt. So I often felt my story wasn't worthy of being told. But eventually I realized that my testimony has never been about me, nor will it ever be about me. It's about Jesus. It's always been about Jesus. He is the story. The same Jesus who covers the convict-turned-Christian, covers me too. Jesus is the plot-twist, the hero, the climax, the happily-ever-after, the conclusion of every Christian's story. Isn't that amazing?! 

Just about the time I realized I didn't need a "dramatic" story, God gave me one. Married the summer after I graduated high school, pregnant on the honeymoon. Oh gracious. He taught me plenty through that, too. But you know the cool thing? Jesus saved me when my story was plain, and He saved me when my story was insane. You know why? Because it's His story, not mine. I don't know about you, but that's incredibly freeing. 


I always cry when I speak in front of people, it just happens. One-on-one, no issue, I don't cry. Some of my closest friends have never seen me cry. I don't understand it, I just don't cry in conversation. But you give me a stage and have rows of people... And I bawl. I cried when I gave my cousin's bridal shower devotion; I'm sure that was a real encouragement to her... Regardless, my goal was not to cry while giving my testimony. Fellow staff member, Joe said that crying might make me seem genuine. I told him that it would make me seem weak. (This was only the surface of the sarcasm and banter that I experienced with the staff. They totally have my humor and it made the trip quite enjoyable.) I told Joe to yell, "WEAK!" at me if I started tearing up. When I cry I ramble and I try to make everyone laugh so I'll stop crying, and I didn't want to have to do that. I wanted to be able to keep the focus and give them a glimpse of Jesus at work in my life. I practically succeeded. I did have to yell at Joe once to help me out. 


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Hysterical moment of the trip:
"Thur's a bur!"



I'm telling you, these kids were soooo funny!


The man below is Wayne, our bus driver. He was more involved in our camp than any other driver in the past. He helped with KP, joined in on activities, and had a love for my camera. He asked to try it out the first night and he consistently grabbed it and caught some great moments of the campers. Heck, he did most of my job for me! ;) I appreciated his hilarious demeanor and his silly jokes. 


Also, that picture is from the human maze. Jordan and I tried it and it took us 45 minutes to give up. We lost track of our kids and failed to complete anything worth mentioning. 


Sweet Sandy was my partner in this adventure. We spent many hours chatting, strategizing, laughing, and growing. She convinced me that I could get a tattoo. She taught me how to play Euchre. She gave me resources for Prayer Group. She braided my hair for goodness sake. She was a joy to be around. And look how adorable she is >
Together we discovered a passion for tea. We found a place called David's Tea in Calgary. We spent more money on tea that day that I had in my entire life. But now we love tea. And it was worth it. Also we tried things called "tea pops". It's tea with carbonated water and it was delicious. Except we had to get on the bus after that and my bladder threw a hissy fit. I had to use the "heel trick" because I made that a thing when I was desperate. But still we were an hour from camp and I was going to lose it. I had to do the forbidden act. I had to use the bus bathroom. I'm sorry I let my team down. It was unacceptable and next time I will resist the temptation to guzzle a tea pop before our bus ride. 





There are several things that stand out to me about what God taught me through Travel Camp.  Service. Honesty. Prayer. 
Serving on TC meant giving up my family for 11 days, it meant being uncomfortable and being afraid of this new experience. 
I've wasted too many years seeking the approval of others, hiding my faults because I wanted to appear confident. Not being honest with people, myself, or God.
I experienced some of the most meaningful and powerful prayer while on TC simply because I was intentional about it. 
Because I was willing to serve and sacrifice, God used that to open up my eyes to things I wouldn't have grasped at home. It was a tremendous time of growth in my life and I look forward to the things that will come out of it. Even my selfish motives going into camp were flipped on the head. 
Thankfully, it's Jesus' story, not mine. 


There were so many memories that haven't been told and I only hope you get to hear them all someday. It was a remarkable 11 days. But the journey has only just begun. 


It's His story, growing on the farm... 

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

One Happy Schwan's Man

We checked the zoo off of our summer bucket list!


This turtle swam right up to Trevin at the aquarium and stared him down. Glad I had my camera close! 




Trevin loved the zoo. He was so excited to see each exhibit and see some animals for the first time. 



They're in the process of building some new exhibits at Henry Doorly Zoo. We came across a lot of machinery and Trevin was quick to point out all of the "bobcats" in the construction zone. He is all farm boy. Totally, entirely, farm boy. 



He was completely captivated by the zoo and talks about it every. single. day. He asks to go back and I have to break his heart every time by telling him we won't be going back until next summer. 


We had a great day, but he was wiped out by the end. 


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We really have tried not to spoil Trevin rotten, but I gave in one day and took him to two parades and a carnival. Toddler heaven. He collected loads of candy and enjoyed watching all of the floats, cars, and machinery. I've never seen someone wave as aggressively as he did when he was hoping they'd throw some candy. 


Trevin is a tentative kid. It takes him a while to warm up to people, activities, or ideas. But he surprised me with his eagerness and independence at the carnival. He wanted to ride by himself and go on the "fast" rides. He couldn't stop grinning. 

Trev was THRILLED he got to ride with cousin Marah!



Aunt Brooke even took him through the fun house!


Of course after a day like that, we had to end it with a mega-tantrum. I'm sure you heard it from your house that night. I literally have a scar on my face from that one.... 
I totally deserve being on the parenting end of mega-tantrums. Because they named them after me. I remember throwing them and ruining everyone's fun. And now it's payback. Karma folks, karma. 

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I got to spend some time with these sweet cheeks. 


The baby fever that was previously irregular and sporadic is now in full force. This one made it stick. He creates baby fever in everyone that comes into his presence. It's terrifying. 

Seriously. STAWP. 


And then I remember that he already has a mom and a dad and I can't have him forever. 



We actually got to spend a little time with Uzziah and his momma today. 


Trevin loved holding him and made sure to tell me, "I really like Uzziah." 



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You might remember a couple years back we made a trip to Chicago to visit some of James' family. 
Well they came to visit for a week at the farm. We always love time spent with the Helms'! 



 This was a monumental moment. Trevin willingly and independently sat between them. Like I said before, he takes a long time to warm up to people. By the time he acknowledged them, they had to go home. So we're hoping to plan a trip to Chicago this fall to rekindle the connection between Trevin and the Helms'. Because once a year just isn't cutting it. This is going to be a well-travelled year for us! 


While they were back, Chad, Amy and their kiddos came and toured CRC. They had a "go-kart foot race."  It looked exhausting, but these people are like LED lights. They never die. We played ultimate frisbee the first night they were back and I was sore for 4 days. But they hopped out of bed the next day and put themselves to work on the farm. They are made out of steel and I'm more comparable to a twizzler. 


Day camps were in full swing the week they were visiting so Trevin ended up spending lots of time with Papa, Mimi, Uncle Ron, Aunt Marilynn (the "other Mimi" as Trevin called her,) Chad, Amy, Noah, Ruthie and many other cousins. We were able to take Chad and Amy to Grafton, NE for the best wings in the nation; we're expecting them to return the favor with Chicago pizza when we visit this fall. Can't wait so see this crew again soon. 

Caleb, Trevin, Ruthie, and Jackson
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I've been a camp junkie this month. 1 week of junior high, 2 weeks of elementary and soon to be 11 days of high school. 


We had 80 junior high campers, almost 100 elementary campers, and 55 high schoolers. It's been a smooth, enjoyable, and life-impacting summer. Our staff was incredible and the kids were so fun. 


Trevin joined me at camp a couple mornings. Starting them young!



Here's the four directors that make our camp a success every year. They have an incredible willingness to serve and a genuine love for these kids. 

Clayton and Jordan
Paul and Kathy

At the end of day camps we host a family picnic, Trevin got to come this year and experienced the camp actives for the first time. He was beaming with excitement. 

Obstacle course
Canoeing!
I'm going on staff for Travel Camp this year. We leave on Tuesday and I'm just as scared as I am excited. 11 days is a long time to leave my big babe and my little babe. It's going to be a great opportunity and a wonderful experience, but my heart will certainly be with the bouncing curls back in Nebraska. The good news is that we're headed to Canada, Banff and Calgary. The Canada trip is a great one, I have so many fun memories as a camper, and I only hope that the students will make as many memories as I did. But please pray. For my husband. Who is keeping our 3-year-old. For 11 days. And feeding him. And bathing him. And napping him. And wiping him. And parenting him. And farming. And experiencing mega-tantrums alone. And oh my goodness. I'm not sure if he'll survive. I've been trying to stock the freezer for some quick and easy meals... for example, the Schwan's man came today and I bought enough to send him into retirement at 30-years-old. (Not really, but it was a lot of frozen food, he had to quit for the day because I emptied his truck. Not really, but you get it.) I did make a freezer meal from scratch too.. Don't be so quick to judge me. 
I'm sure I'll have many stories to share with y'all when I get back. Just remember while you're sweating from the NE heat, I'll be freezing in my tent each Canadian night. 

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My friends are cute. 
Fourth of July was a blast. (No pun intended.) 




Trevin and Marah have a lot of fun together. They loved watching the fireworks! 



We spent the fourth at Brooke and Joey's at the 5th Annual Bash on the Blue. Joey's firework display is second to none. Someone gets hit with a firework every year and it keeps it interesting! It's not a good show if you're not a little afraid. 




Once again, Trevin surprised us with his excitement and eagerness for firecrackers. He even lit some small ones by himself! 



Happy Birthday, America. 
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A few other memories from the month:




We were asked to participate in a parade for a camp that hosts foster kids for the week. The theme was royalty... so we put a crown on a bobcat... I rode in the bucket and tried not to let James dump me out as we drove through the parade. It was such a great memory and watching the kids light up was worth every second of making that silly crown.






One evening I had the chance to babysit 4 of my nephews along with my crazy boy. 5 boys. I was completely outnumbered and out of control, but we sure had fun!




Father's Day 2015. We are the luckiest to have this guy as our leader. 



The famous, "Trevin selfie" 

+We buy Simply Orange with Mango juice. One night Trevin asked, "Mom, can I get some of that flamango juice?" Laughed for days.
+He started calling James, "James." No bueno. Parenting is just as much serious as it is funny, and sometimes you don't know which emotion is trump. 







+Trevin saw his first movie in theaters this month! I was anxious to see Inside Out, so I had to take him so I didn't look like a fool going by myself. It was adorable and he sat contently through the whole thing!





Trevin loves running through the sprinkler, and it's brought countless hours of fun for us, but he's recently learned that he can use the sprinkler as a water weapon. It's no longer a peaceful endeavor. Luxy came to run through the sprinkler one day, too!


 It was that day, that I got us into the biggest pickle any of us had ever been in. (Any Sandlot fans out there? MY FAVORITE.)  When we were remodeling the basement we came across a valve that had been shut off. Turned out it went to the hydrant on the front of our house. We flipped it on and that's the hydrant I hooked the hose up to that day. Long story short, I had to run inside to get Trevin a special toy and I heard the sound of rushing water. I ran (SO FAST) and shut off the hydrant. Turns out the valve was off for a reason. Apparently, years ago, the pipes had froze and that line had flooded the basement, so they shut the valve off. Water had been pouring into our basement for 20 minutes. Yes our newly remodeled basement. Thankfully it was on the old side, where we hadn't painted. But our brand new sectional was in plastic in that room. The water only got a couple inches so only the feet of the couch got wet. I had to spend hours vacuuming up water. Our new drywall was soaked. We had fans going on it for weeks. When I came in the water had just started to trickle down hall to the new basement where we had many barn boards on the floor waiting to be hung. Hallelujah that it didn't get that far. I was so grateful that there was no serious damage, but it was a good reminder that stuff is just stuff. Hold it with an open hand, not a closed fist and life will be much more enjoyable. 


One of my favorite days was picking wild raspberries on the farm with my boys. Not a single one of Trevin's berries made it into the bucket. He devoured them. Life is just too sweet with this one. 



Enjoying the sweet things, growing on the farm...